It has been almost three months since I've last posted. 

It seems like three years.

I'm still working every day.  The 2 year olds have started racing.  Oh, all our horses suck.  We think they're either all sick or they don't like the new hay.

My birthdays soon.  Thats weird for me to.  I'm still not going back to school.  Not yet, anyways.  And I should.  Because I'm not going to get anywhere in the job I'm at now; its just easy.  And I'm content.

I like being content.  I like being happy.  I'm more content and happy then I've been.  Well, then I had been.  Its been a lousy couple or weeks, really.

I thought I was having a bad time with Chrisey Sue having a bad leg- come to find out the morning of one of Robs horses just dropped dead in his stall.  Okay, bad leg isn't as bad as.. dead.

sanjaya, lakeisha, and blake are in the bottom three.

if sanjaya stays and lakeisha goes home, i'm going to FREAK out.

if sanjaya stays and blake goes home?  I'm not watching anymore of American Idol.

pretty much all men are pigs. pretty much.

the fact that he was all into me even though he had a girlfriend really didn't bother me. maybe it should have.  but then again, maybe i'm just a whore.  but nope, i didn't mind.  i thought maybe they were on the rocks, maybe they were going to be breaking up, things weren't going well.

the last time he came over here?  abouttt..three weeks ago.  what i found out this weekend?  he's been living with his girlfriend for about four and a half weeks.  are you kidding me?

are men that..;alergkjhag that moving in with your girlfriend isn't something you tell another girl who you've kinda started something with?  are you retarded?!?  i figured that they were probably still together.  but are you fucking kidding me, dude!??!  i asked him where he was going, because i knew the house he was in, he had to get out of.. and i asked him and he'd say something like "oh, I have the end of the month to worry about it.."  Lets talk about how you're an asshole.  Jackass.  I don't even get how anyone is that.. i don't even know, but he's fucking pissed me off SO bad.  I haven't seen him since I heard that.  and dammit, i need to not, or else i'll frigging FREAK out on him..

no.  i am.  because i knew he was trouble; and i went for it anyways.  and now i regret it. cause i almost fell for him; i reallyyy liked him.  and now this.  because he's a horrible person; and now i must forget about it completely, or at least move on and not eff up like this again. dammit!!!

i hate how he makes me so sad.. =[

Its been like..two months since I've updated.  Has anything changed?  Not really.

I moved to Gray, into an apartment with my friend Lynn.  I love it.  Its an older farmhouse, but its home.  Its really messy right now.. we don't like cleaning, or dishes.  I mean, we do it.  But we're not all about it.

I got a tattoo.  I don't know if xanga knows that.  Its a shooting star on my foot, right above the strap of my flip flop.  I love it.  I put red in my hair again..but its gone. It was a lot quicker than the stuff that Bonnie Fay put in it.  Oh well.  I do like the streaks though.  I'm a fan.

The races started!! Plainridge is open..has been for a couple weeks; I've gone down each week, the three year old filly Chrisey Sue is SO my filly.  She likes me, I like her, we've bonded.  We're tight.  Scarborough opens Saturday!!  We're not going to race any though..all of them already raced this week.

And I'm still retarded.  Blue eyes still get to me. Blue eyes will probably always get to me.  I'm just pathetic.

I hope everybodys just peachy!

I think this past week..maybe even including today, has been one of the worst.  Of my whole life.

Tuesday I stayed at Wally and Lisas, because of the snow.. and got a text message from my mother, basically kicking me out.  Wow.  Fun.  Me and my mother have SUCH a good relationship, that this gets sent in a text message.. ha.  Then I spent the rest of my night thinking about how to run damage control with something that I got involved in that I shouldn't have ever gotten into.  I stayed at my sisters a couple nights, but mostly I stayed with Wally and Lisa..I never realized how nice the people in my life were until SO many of them offered to bunk me up.  =)

Two days ago I didn't get back from work until like 7:30.. after we got done jogging Wally went to get hay, Eernie the farrier came, and then by the time Eernie left, I had just enough time to feed up before we got to unload 160 bales of hay.  WOOHOO.  Friday night I went to Barbs to watch Survivorrrr.  Today we jogged SO many more than we usually do.. we're starting them all back to get them race ready. =)

And then BOOM, its Sunday night again.  I'm back at home.  Oh, and today at work Bob & Diane [our really rich owners who own almost 7 horses] gave me a valentines day card with a check for $500; omg.  ha I almost died.

Tuesday the vet and farrier are coming.  And we're jogging like.. 15.  Just Wally and me.  Oi vey.